My sophomore year has made me feel somewhat more like a true independent college student. I can't really explain that student; I guess it is a change in the way that I think and interact. A change in the way that I live my everyday life. A change in what I like and do not like. A change in the way that I think. Maybe I'm becoming mature? I'm not sure if I would go that far or not. This was my last year as a student and still a teenager so I guess that I better be somewhat developing. My first semester was dominated by studies. I was tired all the time, and I barely did anything but study, sleep, and eat. It was such a terrible semester in social terms. No one I knew did much of anything; it was horribly depressing. I think the only good thing about the first semester is that I became more involved with Carson-Newman's international program, which has been such a big blessing. I think a real turnaround, however, occurred with the Spring semester. We had much more fun activities going on (mostly random), and it seemed like a reconnection process took place. I think we all got more comfortable with one another and made connections that were never there before. I think all of us also had more time to take part in various "activities." I think a revelation came to me this last semester; I made a good decision by going into the business department. This was the first semester that most of classes (except one) took place in the business department. I feel more apt to those type of classes, and it seems to come natural to me. Some might say that I am just taking the easy path (that is the common misconception), but I would beg to differ. Sure, some business classes are easy, but these classes are more challenging than most would think. It takes a great deal of effort to do well. I feel comfortable going this path, and I am so glad that I have came to this realization. All of this happened despite what I refer to the "worst week of my life" that has troubled me throughout the semester. I have felt so empty and angry ever since some people thought that they knew all the answers; I have been hurt so bad by them. It going to take a considerable bit of time to recover completely; it is so hard to rid myself of this feeling of disillusionment. The latter half of my Sophomore year has been ruined by that one event; I wish that some people could grasp how bad that I have been hurt. Oh well, that's human nature I guess.Here's a rundown of some of the big events in my life of the 2005-2006 school year:
August-May: Many new international friendships
August: I got a new couch
August: Hurricane Katrina hit and gas prices went crazy
September: I couldn't find any direction
October: I took part in my first missions trip and had the most amazing time helping clean up from Katrina in Mississippi
November: The annexation of Chicken Island
November: I grew my first beard
December: The Sprint strike ends
December: "A Christmas Story" Christmas
January: The worst week of my life
January: The start of Shawnaka
January: The reconnection begins
February: Snow and more snow
February: A great cross-cultural weekend
March: I'm going to Korea!
April: My last English paper...ever!
May: My Sophomore year ends; I'm now a Junior in college
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Just had on my mind where you said that in January you had the worst week of your life. All you can call the people who created this week, low life people who joy on other people's misery. This past Wednesday night, our pastor, brought this out in his study and it is a great verse. In your heart you have to forgive these people and it has been very very hard for me because you are my child. This verse says it all and I firmly believe it because Jesus said it. In Romans 12:19 he said:
ReplyDeleteDearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.
I want vengeance for you, but I know I have to turn it over to him and he will take care of it. Just keep trusting in him and he will make you a stronger person out of this ordeal. Just use it as a hard way to find out who your true friends are. I look at the situation as, he had another place for us, we could see that it wasn't where we were at, but it is hard to pick up and leave. He will work that out also. So, just keep loving your Jesus because Satan would love to see you stop.