Yeah, I have no idea where I am going in life. I don't think I have ever been so disappointed in myself. I have always had a plan for my life; I always knew where I was going and why. Not any more. My professional and social lives are way up in the air right now, and I can't see that far. I need to get some glasses or something because my time is running shorter and shorter. It seems like I started my freshman year at Carson-Newman just a few months ago, and I'm now getting ready to start my junior year. Time just flies by; classes start in a couple of weeks, but school just ended what seems a few weeks ago. I had wanted to plan out the next few years and determine exactly what path I wanted to take; that, however, didn't work out. I don't feel any closer to a decision. A few things, though, have been revealed to me; I just wish I had been smarter earlier. I'm gonna have to eventually just make a leap and hope everything works out for the best. I think that is what God wants too; I've prayed my heart out for guidance, but it seems like I never get an answer back. I think He just wants me to keep praying with the assumption that everything will eventually work out. I need to have more confidence in myself and realize that I can do whatever I want. I've been thinking about a certain field, but it just scares me that I will not do well and the possibility of being bored for the rest of my life. I don't want to age, get stuck in a career, and hate going to work. I not only fear my future professional life, but I also don't know where my social life will stand in a few years. I've been blessed with some wonderful friends, but I can't rely on friends for the rest of my life. I need to be more aggressive and proactive in the social realm; I once again fear getting stuck and having no hope for the future. I don't know where my path is leading me; I just hope it all works out - both my professional life and social life.
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Shawn,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you feel so detached about your future. I'm sure all of us are very insecure about our futures (with the exception of Preston), myself included. I know I want to teach, but the question is where. I thought Morristown might be a nice place to try, but now, I'm not sure if I want to teach around in that area or not. You've got to remember that you have two years left with school, and I'm sure by then, you'll have figured out what you want to do. I'll pray for you; it's terribly frustrating to feel the way you do. I've been there as well.
As for the social issue, I was wondering if you meant in school or just in general. I think you are a social butterfly, but you also work very hard with your studies, which makes you a much more proficient student than the rest of us. I crave your zeal in your studies, and I wish I had to mindset to study as hard as you do. I would give up a huge part of my social life if I could dedicate myself to hardcore studying; that's how much I love knowledge and learning. I'm sure that this semester will open up more opportunities for the both of us. In the few years that I have been to CN, I have found that prayer will always point you in the right direction- also, it's sometimes all in who prays for you. Personal praying does wonders, but with everyone else praying with you and for you- that will drastically improve things. I hope this rather lengthy post will help brighten your day and strengthen your resolve. Comments that you send me always help me out; I hope this one will do the same.
Thanks, Adam, I really appreciate it! :o)
ReplyDeleteI think everyone feels like that. I'm 36 and I only recently figured out what I want to do with my life (though part of it will take a few more years before I can make it happen).
ReplyDeleteThe best advice I know (for a career) is pick something that you think you'll love, at least for the next few years. MAKE SURE YOU SAVE YOUR MONEY AND DON'T SPEND MORE THAN YOU EARN. Then, when and if you decide you want a career change or you want to get an advanced degree, you should be able to make it happen by having some savings and being able to go back to school (if necessary). Life is ever-changing. Don't let fear of the unknown keep you from moving forward. People get depressed when they feel stuck. Keep making goals and planning your life and you'll keep those feelings at bay.
Thanks for the advice. The more and more that I think about this I feel that I will never have a "clear" vision of the direction I should take in life. I'm really starting to think that we just have to take life as it comes and hope it all works out.
ReplyDeleteYou're right - there are a few moments of clarity, but other than that, not so much. There are so many choices, you can't say there's only one correct choice. Each choice can lead you down a different path. But you have Faith, so that's better than just hoping it all works out. Every time my husband and I have wanted something that didn't come through and we were disappointed, something much better has always come along after. God will provide.
ReplyDeleteWhoever you are, thank you so much for the advice. It has given me wonderful encouragement and has eased my worries. I greatly appreciate it! Thank you again! :o)
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